Only 8 minutes left.....

Okay, so Mason is crying in his bed right now...i'm sorry, not crying, SCREAMING! I'm trying to block it out..but I just can't. I feel so bad. I suppose you are wondering why I'm not running in there to pick him up, right?!?! Well, I'm attempting to let him "cry it out". I'm doing all I can to keep my butt planted on this seat and not run in there to pick him up. I know he's SO tired. He keeps falling asleep in my arms. I mean it won't be 2 seconds and he'll be completely sound asleep. But the second I put him in his bed he wakes up. He needs to learn to sleep in his bed. He does sleep in there at night but only after about 10pm. Before that he sleeps in my arms. It just gets so hard to hold him and try to get the other 2 kids ready for bed and spend time reading to them and doing our bedtime routine. It's one thing if Mason was awake during all that but he is usually asleep. Okay, so now there is only 4 minutes left until I told myself I would go in there and comfort him then walk back out with hopes he will stay laying down and drift off into a peaceful sleep. I don't know if i can make it thru though another 15 minutes of this. I'm sure i'll see his little tear stained face and scoop him up into my arms and squeeze him tight and tell him I love him and that I'm SO sorry. Then he will wrap his little arms around me and nestle his face in my neck. And there we go...another night that I said I would let him "cry it out" and then just couldn't do it. Okay, time is up...time to go and rescue Mason from trying to go to sleep.

Happy Birthday Jordan!

Bet you all didn't know that on July 1st, 2003 a famous scientist was born! Yup, Jordan Lee Beers is his name!!!! Jordan's 5th birthday was on July 1st and that kid has too many toys and there wasn't anything he really wanted so we didn't know what to get him. I knew he wanted "science stuff" because he LOVES anything to do with science. SO Ryan was in charge of going to Toys R Us and buying is birthday presents. WELL, I should I learned by now that if I send him, he's bound to go overboard..and yes, that is what he did. He bought pracitcally every science thing they had! A human body where all the parts come apart and you can learn the anatomy, a bubble making experiment thing, a space thing where it projects space images on your ceiling, a REAL teloscope, an eye clops (that thing that magnifies everything and you can see everything up close on your tv..kinda scary! i don't like seeing objects in my house that close, makes me want to clean everything even more! LOL). Let's see..what else...some other science experiement kit. As he was opening them up, he looked at us and said, "wow, these presents are getting amazinger (he made up that word! LOL) and amazinger!!!" Then he got a driver (a golf club) which he really wanted. So Jordan is keeping very busy and is LOVING all the science stuff. We had a very fun time at Chuck E. Cheese where he had his party. His cake was Indiana Jones. So that is his party in a nutshell.

I can't believe my baby is FIVE yrs old! He will be starting Kindergarten August 18th. That is SO crazy to me. It doesn't seem possible that he's that old already. It's exciting yet sad at the same time. Last night I was holding him in the rocking chair and he fell asleep! So I had to carry him to bed. I couldn't believe how heavy and hard it was to get him into bed. I hadn't really lifted him in awhile and man, that really made realize how big he's getting!

My first "non-myspace" blog

Wow, I did it! Never thought I would but a friend got me thinking about it and I cracked and decided to create my own blog other than the ramblings I write on myspace. It's 12:34am..yes, after midnight...the house is finally quiet. Kids are asleep...I can hear Mason breathing thru the baby monitor, Ryan is typing away on his computer busy doing his work, and I'm comfortably sitting in bed with my very own laptop (finally have my own). Ahh....finally a moment to relax...I've been waiting for this ALL DAY and the moment is finally here! Tomorrow is another busy day. A day to hug my kids, kiss my kids, play with my kids, discipline my kids, break up hitting matches that my kids will have with each other, hold the baby, nurse the baby, do laundry, fold laundry, put laundry away, make breakfast, make lunch, make dinner, probably go to walmart, pick up toys, pick up more toys, clean up food on the floor, wipe up spilled milk, change diapers, wipe poopie behinds, change more diapers, WHAT A DAY...and then...once again I'll have this moment after midnight when all my days tasks are completed to finally relax. YAY! anyways...i'm just rambling now. I need to get some sleep! Good night!