Baby Girl Beers Update

On Tuesday I had my dr appointment. Everything is going good. I was 35 1/2 weeks and but now i'm 36 weeks! WOW...it's going SOOO fast! (sometimes though, I feel it's not going fast enough). I'm dialated a little over 1cm already! I know that really isn't much, BUT to me it is because I normally don't dialate at all until at least 38 weeks. I have been having lots of braxton hicks contractions and some have been down right painful. BUT they are not consistant and tend to feel better as I move around so they are definetly just "practice" contractions and not the real thing. Each time though, I think "could this really be it?!?!". I've never experienced going into labor on my own. I've been induced with all 3 so far. I'm kinda looking forward to just going into labor on my own BUT it has to be at a convienent time for me. During the day, Ryan not out of town, etc. That isn't too much to ask is it?!?!?! LOL! But anyways, back to my dr appointment. My dr does think my baby is breech though. She thought she felt feet and then she pushed around on my stomach and said she was pretty sure her head was up at the top. She is running out of room to move around so it has me nervous that she won't get in the right position before birth. I REALLY don't want a c-section. But if she is breech I'm sure that is the route they will go considering the size of my babies. I go back on Tuesday and if she thinks she is still breech then they are going to do another ultrasound to make sure. So anyways, that is the update on baby girl beers. She still doesn't have a name. We have had 2 different names picked out and thought for sure that would be it, but we keep changing our minds. I'm sure we'll come up with one by the time she is born, if not..we'll just have to look at her and see what name fits her best!!!!

my day

Okay, so first of all, I am minus 2 kids for part of this week. Ryan had to go to Memphis, TN to work some insurance claims again this week and is staying with his sister. SO he took Jordan & Mya with him and she is watching them while he's working. I was so sad saying good bye to them this morning. This is the first time I've ever been away from them at night except for when I was in the hospital giving birth. I feel so lost that they aren't here with me. I can't stop thinking about them and can't stop worrying about them. But I know they will be fine but it's just SO hard for me. I have always just had a hard time ever thinking I would leave them over night. I do have Mason at home with me, but I just feel lost only having one kid to take care of. Although, Mason made sure that my day was anything but easy. The poor baby is sick. This morning I had to run to the bank around 8:30am. So we hopped in the Expedition and went on to the bank on the way home Mason started crying and saying "mommy, mommy" I looked in my rear view mirror to see what was wrong and then all of a sudden "Volcano Mason" erupted. Yes, he threw up all over!!!! Okay, that came out of NO WHERE! I was shocked. We were only 2 min from home so I continued to drive. After we got home I cleaned him up and he seemed to be better. But he wouldn't eat, other than though, he seemed just fine. I had a Dr appt at 11:15am today so we had to leave around 10:30am to get there in time. I got out another car seat (I hadn't had a chance to completely clean up the other car seat yet and some how we have 4 car seats that he could go into. Strange cuz we only have 2 kids--Mya & Mason that need just the regular forward facing car seats..but anyways). As we are driving to my appointment he started to cry and sure enough, "volcano Mason" erupted AGAIN!. I pulled over and cleaned him all up. Changed his clothes and everything. I really needed to go to my appt so I decided to just continue on. I prayed the rest of the way that he wouldn't puke again. He ended up falling asleep. When we got there, he was as happy as could be and acted completely fine. By 12:15am we were on our way home. Once again, he puked ALL OVER. I pulled over, took off his clothes, cleaned him up and tried getting him comfortable back in his seat. I couldn't believe this was happening!!! After I got home, I gave him a bath and he seemed just fine once again. He even asked for applesauce and some grapes. I let him eat what he wanted cuz I knew he needed something in him. He even had a little bit of milk in his bottle. Besides being a little extra clingy to me, he acted normal. He played outside and everything! I really needed to get a few things from walmart so at 6:30pm I decided to head out (crazy i know)I mean, he hadn't thrown up since 12:30pm. Wouldn't you know though, 5 minutes down the road, he puked ALL OVER. This time it was BAD. Since he had eaten earlier that was all over. I take this back way to walmart. It's literally over the river and through the woods and there really isn't anywhere to pull over. But it only takes 10 min to get to walmart so I continued on my way. I cleaned him up in the parking lot. changed his clothes and got him all clean. I figuredI had a little bit of time before he felt sick again. So we rushed thru walmart and I got everything I needed. Now it was time to go home. I did something I thought I would NEVER do. THere was no way he could sit in his car seat without getting all nasty again (it's a mess and going to require me taking off all of the seat cloth and washing it) SO I put him in Jordan's booster seat and just buckled him with the regular seat belt. I know, I'm a bad mom. I'm normally such a stickler when it comes to following the car seat rules. I WILL NOT put my kids in a booster car seat until they are over 40lbs and so many inches (i don't know the exact inches off the top of my head). That is definetly a safety rule I will stick to. Poor Mya won't be in a booster seat car seat until she's in 2nd grade at this rate...she doesn't even weigh 30lbs yet and she's just about 4!!! but anyways...so I put Mason in jordan's booster seat car seat. I prayed that God would protect us on our 10 min ride home and off I went. Luckily, like I said, Walmart is over the river and through the woods to our house...so there wasn't any traffic and I could go as slow as I wanted to. We made it home without another puking episode OR getting in a wreck. So anyways....now it's almost 11pm...Mason is sleeping and I really had planned on getting TONS of stuff done while Mason was in bed since I wouldn't have the other kiddos to put to bed. But now I'm thinking I will just head to bed myself. Tomorrow is another day and I can hopefully get stuff done and enjoy my day with just Mason a little more than i did today. I'm praying he's over this by morning. I do have to take our expedition in at 8am too to get new brakes so I'm really praying he doesn't puke again. Wow...what a day it was today!

Jordan's graduation

WAY TO GO JORDAN! The big GRADUATE! On May 22, 2009 Jordan graduated from Kindergarten. I can't believe he's going to be a 1st grader now! He's growing into such a big boy. We are SOOO proud of him. He had a great graduation ceremony, then his class released balloons with their future dreams attached to them! After he was done we took him out to eat. Then when we got home he went off and did his own thing. To my surprise he had cleaned up his ENTIRE room (something he doesn't normally do on his own without me bascially forcing him to). I told him how surprised and proud of him I was and he said, "well, mommy, i'm a 1st grader now...so I have to do things like this!". That made me smile. My little boy has grown up!!!

Potty training is for the birds....

I don't even know what to do anymore. It's like every day I wake up and think "okay, TODAY is the day Mya will be potty trained". And then at the end of the day. Still in diapers and we made no progress whatsoever.

It's like I'm embarassed that she will be 4 next month and I'm still changing her diaper. She was wearing pull ups...but those at too expensive to wear when you know she's just going to wet in them. I was willing to pay the extra to have her wear them to make it easier to go potty, but to her..they were just diapers she could put on herself.

Her whole potty training experience started when she was about 1 1/2. She decided she wanted to use the big potty. I was shocked because she was so young..but they say they will let you know when they are ready. I was all excited. She went a few times. But then she was totally not into it anymore. So we stopped. No biggie. Afterall she was only 1 1/2. Then around 2 1/2 we bought her underwear and started the whole potty training process. She wasn't into it at all. She wore the underwear but wouldn't go for nothing. She held it all day long. No accidents which was good but she never went on the potty either. She waited until bedtime when she got her diaper back on. Since this was obviously not going anywhere...and I was about to have Mason. We stopped with the potty training. I thought she obviously wasn't ready.

Out of no where this past November she decided she was going to be potty trained. The whole week of Thanksgiving she wore underwear and went on the potty. I was SO excited. She did tell me however, that I wasn't allowed to be excited for her because going potty was no big deal. She would get upset if anyone made comments praising her. Then like the flip of a light switch she was back refusing to wear underwear and use the potty. I'm not just saying she acted scared or said no, she would have full blown fits that would last hours (no joke!) And now that is STILL where we are at if we even mention her wearing underwear or using the potty. It's SO stressful. I have asked her what the best thing ever would be that she wants. She wants a cupcake maker. I told her that if she would just put these underwear on, we would head to walmart right then and buy her that cupcake maker. I just suggested she put the underwear on...not even for a week or anything..just put them on at that moment. Then she said, "well, then i don't want a cupcake maker". I don't need it that bad if if means i have to potty train. So she obviously has a complete understanding of what is going on. One day she was talking that she might want to get her ears pierced. I said as soon as she is potty trained I would take her. Then she said, "okay, never mind..i'll just wait until I'm a grown up to get my ears pierced". She wanted to go to Pre-K next year. I told her I couldn't sign her up if she wasn't potty trained. THen she said, "that is fine, i just won't go...i don't care about it that much". This goes on for EVERYTHING she says she wants. She asks for candy...and i say, "go try to go potty first, then you can have a piece". Her response, "nevermind, i don't want any". A few weeks ago we had some issues with her diapers coming undone. She was at Jordan's baseball practice with Ryan and she was playing with her friend there and her diaper came undone and fell off. She was embarassed. She had a talk with Daddy and said the next week she would get rid of diapers since she was too big for them. That next Monday came...and the 1st thing she said to me in the morning was "I know i said i would potty train this week, but i changed my mind. I don't care if my diapers don't stay on". I didn't even remember at that moment that she was starting that day, SHE remembered though. So she definetly is "smart" enough to use the potty. It's that she doesn't want to.

I have looked at many books and read many articles online. It's like I laugh at their suggestions. they sound SO simple. But they've all been tried with Mya and they just don't work. I don't know what to do. Sometimes I feel like it's my fault. But I have tried everything. I don't know what to do. this has been the hardest parenting thing I've ever dealt with. I laugh at those that say girls are easier to potty train. Jordan was difficult but still 100 times easier. At least he would put the underwear on at least try to use the potty. I can't even get that out of her. In a month an a half, I'm going to have 3 kids in diapers. I don't know what to do. I did talk to the dr about 3 months ago about her issues. He said then that if she wasn't trained within the next month not to do anything till after the baby is born because it would be too much on her. But that makes her OVER 4 yrs old. I mean, who has a 4 yr old girl still in diapers? Not that I care what everyone else is doing, but it's just like what is wrong with me that she isn't potty trained yet. She is such a smart, beautiful girl. I don't get why this is so hard for her. I just think of how hard this is right now to deal with, I can't imagine what it's going to be like in a couple of months once I have the baby. I'm going to be so much more busy. How am I going to deal with this then? I'm will to take suggestions. I'm to the point where I don't even know what else to try. I pray and pray that she will come around.

My Pet Peeves of Motherhood

I kinda got this idea from a friend's blog. But some days..i just want to SCREAM...Here are some things that make me want to do that.

1. Picking up the couch pillows for the 100th time and it's only noon!

2. Getting dinner ALL cleaned up and the kids are already hungry again.

3. Stepping on crackers or cereal.

4. FINDING crackers or cereal on the floor right after vacuuming.

5. My kids tattle tailing on each other

6. when the kids ask for something and I say "ok, just one minute" and they ask the same thing OVER AND OVER for the one minute.

7. Getting Jordan all tucked in bed only to have him get up 2 min later to go to the bathroom (he JUST went!)

8. Reading stories to my kids and having them ask me what is going on in each picture as I'm trying to read it to find out what is going on in the story. I don't mind discussing it..but let me read the page 1st!!! lol

9. Cleaning up one room, only to walk into the next and realize it was getting trashed while i was cleaning the other room.

10. Searching for binkys. How do they get lost SO fast! And why is it that I can only find one even though we have like 10!!

11. Mason throwing food on the floor because he is "done" and i couldn't get it cleared off his tray fast enough!

Okay, so those are some of my pet peeves..but you know what...I don't mind...cuz it means that my house is full of precious little blessings that I could NOT live without! :)

take me out to the ball game...

Jordan has started t-ball again. he's had one game so far. He loves it! Here are some pics from his 1st game.