Thursday, January 12, 2012

I am not cut out for this!

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.
2 Corinthians 12:9

So many people have made the comment to me "I don't know how you do it! I could never homeschool!" I promise you I do not have some magical power that enables me to take on this difficult task. Nor do I have a special gifting for homeschooling. I don't have a ton of patience either. That is something I'm learning each and every day. Most days I feel at some point or another that I failed at something. I say "I am so not cut out for this!" Some days I feel so unadequate. I feel uncertain how to juggle a 3rd grader who struggles with staying on task, while trying to work extra with a 1st grader learning to read, an eager to learn preschooler, a very active toddler and adding a new baby to the mix soon. I really wonder, "Do I really have what it takes?"

But you know, that is where God wants me to be. What role would God have in my life if I felt I could do everything without Him? I must find my strength and energy and confidence in the Lord.

Sometimes its seems so simple to give up. But when I feel that way I need to turn to God and let HIS power give me the strength. It's only by God's grace that I can do what I do. So I am not anymore capable of doing what I do than the people who say they could never homeschool.

So if you think that you could NEVER homeschool know that with Gods help you can. If it's something you desire in your heart go for it! Or if you are homeschooling and feel inadequate know it's okay because you are inadequate but that is where God comes in and makes you adequate to complete the task.

This is something I have to CONSTANTLY remind myself of. Some days go so well, and then there are very hard days that follow. I have to remember that God is with me and will help me through those times. I need to let Him work thru me. It's only because of HIM that I can do what I do. So it's true...I am SO not cut out for this. But thankfully God's grace is sufficient for me.

1 comment:

NanaDiana said...

Congratulations! I did not know you were expecting another baby. What a blessing! It is hard to do at home schooling. I never thought I was cut out to do it so never did. God bless you- Your kids' lives will be greatly enriched because of your efforts. xo Diana

pa. Your blog make over looks great!