Tuesday, January 19, 2010

It's been awhile....

WOW....6 months since I last blogged. I have thought about blogging MANY times in the past 6 months. But that is as far as I get...I never make it to the computer long enough to type up my thoughts and it drives me CRAZY! I find blogging theraputic (did i even spell that right?!?!). I enjoy typing out my thoughts and stories...EVEN it nobody cares to read them. I'm hoping to be able to get back to blogging at least once a week. But I'm a pretty busy lady...so we'll see how good I get. I'm good at updating my facebook status but that is only because it takes me 2.5 seconds to do that. lol. But with taking care of 4 kids and a dog all by myself I don't have much time to take a shower...let alone blog. BUT that is going to change soon. This is what this blog is REALLY about.

As most of you know, Ryan has been working in Tennessee since before Thanksgiving. Yeah, yeah...I KNOW...we moved to Texas so he wouldn't HAVE to travel anymore. But what do ya do when your boss REALLY needs you to work there and you know it's a good choice to do it for financial reasons? The answer is you suck it up and go. We weren't sure how long he would have to work. Possibly only till Christmas, well that turned into after Christmas and here we are a month later and there is NO end in sight. We didn't move to TN back in August (we could have but we chose TX) because we thought Texas would be the better choice. After being here we see that financially, it wasn't the best choice. I guess that is why they say hindsight is 20/20. If we would have known then what we know now, we could have saved ourself the hassle of going thru all this. But we did what we thought was best at the time. After many many prayers we felt peace with our decision. We have prayerfully considered moving to Tennessee. Trust me, I don't want to pack and go thru moving again BUT I don't like our family being "broken apart" either. That is how we feel. We miss "Daddy" so much and he is missing us so much as well. We could just stay here. He could come back and work here. That option is still there. But from a financial standpoint TN is the better choice. We now know that. We haven't been here that long. We have nothing keeping us here. We aren't attached really in any way. So the only reason to stay would be to not have to go thru the hassle of moving again. And that is really a small detail in the big picture. So once again, I have prayed many prayers and I feel God answering those prayers with giving me peace with this decision. I know you probably think "oh they are crazy" moving again. Maybe we are. But I don't care. All I know is we are trying to do what is best for our family. We don't do anything without asking God for his direction. I know God has a plan for us. And that is all that matters. We are tentatively going there to visit at the end of this month. We will stay somewhere temporarily until we find a house. Ryan really wants me there to help with picking out a house so we are going to go. So I'm in the process of packing up the house so it's all packed for when we find a place. As far as the kids, they couldn't be move happy. They have been thrilled ever since we told them our plans. Oh and as far as Jordan with school. That is another whole blog entry. We have decided to homeschool him. We have been considering it for a number of reasons and with all this going on, we have decided to start in a few weeks. I'll write another whole blog about that one later on. I need to call it a night. I'm nursing Gracie and she should be asleep pretty soon. Then I need to get to sleep.

2 comments:

lori bunk said...

you are not crazy... you are amazing! i am so proud of you lou and know that God is going to continue to bless your family!!

denise said...

Shawna, you are doing what is best for your family and that is awesome! Yes, hindsight is 20/20, but you did the best decision for your family with the information you knew. Who knows, maybe it was for Ryan to get these months of traveling the TN cities to know what exact city you should move to! Good luck on the packing, I'm sure you will do it well :) I'm praying for you guys!!! LMK if you need anything :) Love ya!!!